Having.

I have had a frustrating week. With my housework. With my kids. And a few other things.
 I am slowly getting into the Christmas spirit, bought some lights the other day, just need to find time to put them up. And so we go on knowing we have it good, being frustrated, sometimes totally flustered and feel like we are out of our depth, but then you hear some news and you realise how lucky you are to HAVE.

We have a house to live in.
We have furniture to sit on and sleep in.
We have food to eat.
We have transportation and pets and friends and a lot of 'creature comforts'.
We have healthy, mostly happy children.
I have a caring Husband.
I have an emotional heart.

And as much as our emotions (rational or not), can be a nuisance sometimes, it serves to help us know ourselves better.

I was often told before I had children, I would make a great Mum. At the time I thought they were right because I love children. And having had 2 of my own, has brought so much joy to our lives.  My career in childcare taught me how to 'play' with children from birth to their first year of school. But, as much as I love my children, I feel I am at a loss now my son is in school. We talk and play, but I have not had much to do with school aged children attitudes and thinking. And boy have we had to deal with a developing attitude!

I still know I am a great Mum, but when you have your cranky days, and there is no time out for Mum, it is a little hard to recover from. Thankfully, my DH has granted me a shopping trip to our next big town 2 hours away (Little Miss 4 will be in tow, but that is dealable), and my only destination is spotlight. Hhhmmm, wondering what I come home with tomorrow, puts a smile on my face!